low batt mode
July 31, 2008 
I kinda losing my impetus in doing things. The feeling sucks, it’s killing me.
I need to inject more energy within myself, I need new stimulus I need fresh motivation to get back the momentum to push me forward. Any idea?
My legs are aching, as well as my teeth. Aaarrgghh~~Maybe that’s the reason of me not wanting to do anything. Hmm~~
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Now playing: Rihanna – Take A Bow
via FoxyTunes
To you
July 30, 2008 
I’m not sure whether you’re gonna see this, but this is what I wanna tell you. You know who you are.
Things went too fast that I couldn’t really go along with it. I guess that was why endless quarrels and fights came about. None of us could find the solution. We tried to compromise, apparently it failed no matter how. Then I called it off, and selfishly put all the blame on you. Yes, poor you.
It was then became the past for me. Looking back, I am really cruel, isn’t it? I did not give you the least care when you needed it most. Because I am too afraid. I still am. I don’t even dare to send you a simple SMS.
Since then, you never update me how the incident went about. I have no idea how things ended. In the positive ways which I always believed in I hope and pray. You’re a big boy now, I think you can handle everything much much mature than me now, after the bad luck that occurred on you.
Nothing much I can say, just a simple ALL THE BEST, signifies all my concern and thankfulness for you.
We became the past, my concern for you remains without expiry date.
May God bless you in your bright bright future.
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Now playing: 爱戴 – 和寂寞说分手
via FoxyTunes
my negative sides
July 25, 2008 
For once, I was upset over something that I never thought I ever would.
I hate the fact that this world is filled up with materialism. Yet, it is something unavoidable, because you can’t live alone in this world.
Sometimes, I said I am too tired to fight. Yes, sometimes, it is. Yet, that’s the only thing that keeps me going. I just need a voice of support to ease my shattered soul. I know I am the one who makes my own life hard, but I guess you would agree that there’s something that you just can’t compromise. I’m ordinary, no, I’m even less than ordinary. I have to work very hard, because things don’t fly to me like magnet, because it’s never born innately within me. I just refuse to be the reason of my failure.
Grandma is getting old. I am getting worried. I want her to be proud of me like she used to. The next trip is gonna be different. I promised.
Perhaps I am always this stubborn, but, there’s nothing to lose, isn’t it? Don’t worry, I’ll be fine.
忽然很 …
忽然很怀念这首歌。
忽然很怀念以前单单纯纯的生活.
但是,人总该学着长大,没关系,我还撑得住.
娴, 我把email寄去了.很兴奋,好像是第一次跟你一起并肩作战的感觉. 我们都要加油哦~
明天就会回家去了,爸妈已经在催,他们一定恨不得把我狠狠地训一顿.我做了十足的心理准备.
我很快就会回来,不要以为那么容易就把我干掉,我是那只打也打不死的蟑螂, 要加倍小心!!! 我是狠角色!!
最近很累，但也想了很多，对自己的未来似乎有了一些明确的想法，开始知道自己要什么了,很满足~
Damn thief
OK. So I lost my phone. No, my phone was stolen by some retarded bastard. It caused me lots of trouble since I lost all the contacts stored within. And few hundreds, for not replying sms-es that offered me jobs. SIGH. And my reputation, for re-asking people info that they’d given me before as the info was all stored nicely inside my phone memory.
I seriously do not understand. Can you people work for a living instead of stealing? Damn it.
SIGH. Since I lost it, no more complaining how palia my phone is 
And, the main problem is, I don’t have any money to buy myself a new phone. And mummy said since I LIKE to lose my things, she’ll buy me the RM99’s NOKIA for me. Cheap and cute, according to her.
SIGH.
Thieves always make my life miserable.
ps: You guys, please drop me a sms with your name stated OK? I wanna re-save all my contacts, and this time I’ll make sure I back up everything, OK? Please do me this favour ok? Thanks ya~ I’m really headache to recover all my contacts. Thanks thanks~
